Crowns and Kings

I took away the kings crown the other day. Execution style, I'd say. Into exile.

depart, away, fall, go.

oh, btw

I get to write a very long and complex letter soon that will seem like a tragic and terrible story yet it will have a happy ending.

let my writing skills come forth.

btw, im an awesome story teller. xD

<3>

1-12

1-no matter what

2-always there

3-numero bro

4-we fight

5-knows everything

6-its this odd thing we have

7-working on it

8-working on it as well

9-soul

10- forever mine

11-since 3rd grade

12- its this odd thing we have

lawl

f it makes you less sad
I will die by your hand
I hope you find out what you want
I already know what I am
And if it makes you less sad
We'll start talking again
And you can tell me how vile 
I already know that I am

I'll grow old
And start acting my age
I'll be a brand new day 
In a life that you hate
A crown of gold
A heart that's harder than stone
And it hurts a whole lot
But it's missed when it's gone

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad you that can forgive
Only hoping as time goes
You can forget

If it makes you less sad
I'll move out of the state
You can keep to yourself
I'll keep out of your way
And if it makes you less sad
I'll take your pictures all down
Every picture you paint
I will paint myself out
It's as cold as a tomb
And it's dark in your room
When I sneak to your bed 
To pour salt in your wounds
So call it quits
Or get a grip
Say you wanted a solution
You just wanted to be missed

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
I'm only hoping as time goes
You can forget
So you can forget
You can forget

You are calm and reposed
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white like the skin 
Stretched over your bones
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin
Standing trial for your sins
Holding onto yourself the best you can
You are the smell before the rain
You are the blood in my veins

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
I'm only hoping as time goes
You can forget

Christmas

Pretty good one. Got my fish eye lens, filters, remote, flash, ds games (Guitar Hero & Spore), DVDs (The Science of Sleep, The Secret of Nimh and Grey's Anatomy), money for some awesome shopping, WoW(and omg how much i love wow<3)>

Overall a really good christmas.

LOL at my uncle plus fish eye

step back.

Already, its happening.

Its me.

It always is.

I'm not meant for this.

neither are you.

You dont deserve this.

neither do i.

It's only the beginning.

Hero.

I know a select few people read my blog on occasions.

Topic of the day is Heroes. I have a few but this one is one that some people know about and is probably someone elses hero. So I think people should post a comment with a picture or writing about their hero. =]

thinking

about deleting everything.

-myspace

-facebook

-blogger

hm.

don't ask. I hate talking.

excited.

few months. I'll be graduating, moving out, being with my friends all the time instead of just the weekend.

Take a break from school. Enjoy not studying all the time. Should be nice, I hope.

I wished for all of them forever ago and now its here.

I enjoy my life, my friends, my belongings and my future.

life, life, life, life.

I'm trying to find the positive in things.

Things I miss::

I'm just sad that I never see Matthew anymore and it just makes me realize how people go away and you say you'll see each other and you want to but it just doesn't work because of life. The Aquarium is my favorite place in the world and I just miss it. Summer and Kelly are the best. This past summer was so good even though I had to still go to school for half of it, it didn't matter however. Ryan is always missed. And my babies, seeing nathan with his rats makes me miss my mice so much. rofl was a little fighter and I hope she went peacefully.<3

I've been down lately, I hope it passes however. Maybe I need a relax day or weekend.  I dont know. Atlanta next weekend. Maybe thats what I need. /shrug.

Real

It's one of those things that you wish were real.

It's real just not in the same way.

not as magical

or passionate.

Depressing.

Lets find the right words

Drinking tea in the early morning.

Happy and cheerful to pissed and enraged.

only words that come to mind is i hate you, hypocritical, exhausting, speechless.

That is all.

oh god

This is ridiculous. Really?

Come on?

What is going on?

Jeez. Back to The Prestige. What a way to look at things. 

What a creep

xD

open window

something outside the window

Scratching, clawing, banging, screaming.

I've opened the window before to such sounds

just to be disappointed by what was there.

Thrown outside, I set it free.

Coming back with more power and desire.

I look out, observe, has it been tamed?

----

oh how horrible my writing is.

standing

You stand there, big and tall with a smirk on your face.

Not a care, not a know, not an understanding.

Pushed down

You sit there, small and weak with a frown on your face.

with so much care, better knowing, better understanding.

You watch. So quiet, creep.

Graceful soul, you, you are something.

The something? The need? The want?

Realization.

Future

It isn't so clear anymore.

Known Facts:

I know I won't live alone.

My friends are one in a million.

I'll be married by 40. <3

Everything feels different though.

Dream interpretation may be onto something.

2 words: Sucks and Weird

Epiphany. Perspective. Advice. Kindness. Deception. Pacing. Ashamed. Confused. Comfortable. 

Blah. Blah. Blah.

What are you thinking of little one?

What are you thinking of Liar?

What are you thinking of reliable?

What are you thinking of life?

BLAH

blah. blah. Rant. rant. rant. nag. nag. nag. annoying. annoying. annoying.

Starting tomorrow will begin my weekend.

Grey's tradition returns with my 2 favorite guys.

This weekend, hopefully, I will see my other 2 wonderful people. Nathan and Kelly. I miss kelly terribly and I just want to hang with Nathan. Blahhhhh.

whateverr.

x|

Up and Down

Today has been so up and down. I had to go to school early for some tutorial stuff then during the day it was fine. Had to go to springfield to make some money. Didnt finish my algebra homework and people really can't help but annoy me and make me feel horrible.

NAHS induction tomorrow. Guess I'll just wear my dress that I wore to the Marc Jacobs fashion show. 

/shrug

I hope no one shows up tomorrow.

MACITY MAC MAC

fucking love it. Its sooo nice. So much fun with photo booth and iphoto is good for small editing stuff.

Still trying to understand the whole operating system but its awesome.

Around the world.

my mac has traveled so far! Shanghai, China to Anchorage, Alaska to Indianapolia, Indiana to Mephis, Tennessee. Better be in Rincon, GA tomorrow at like 12pm.

Want it. Now.

xD

Change

Last week was way too intense. Too much stuff. This week is a breeze. Club day was today so we did nothing in any of our class, tomorrow will be our only normal day and wed. and Thursday are half days. Friday off.


AND! sometime this week...

PRO PRO PRO PRO.

=]

WTF

This week has been ridiculous. I've been really sick, I've had project after project, test and quizzes, too much driving, not enough time, and just really tired.

I this weekend needs to be good, even if that means lazy.

stupid nerd boyfriends >.<

Senior

It feels amazing to finally be a senior. Just to say that I am finally going to start my life in 9 months. It is almost perfect. The one thing I hate, however, majority of the people I enjoy seeing are either gone, too busy or just whatever.
On that note, I miss Matthew terribly.=[

My classes are pretty good. Liking pshychology a little, loving some astronomy and painting.
President of Nation Arts Honor Society. =]

2 year anniversary mark was hit on August 13th. The Aquarium was amazing, the ride there and back was fun and just being in the town I love was just perfect.



I can't complain too much about anything...
except my algebra 3 grade.

pshh

White Water Rafting was a lot of fun. More fun than last time, maybe.

Thinking about Summer, this one has been alot of fun. Can't complain at all.
past week or two have consisted of Movies, Justin, Various friends, Magic and WoW and I can't complain one bit.

=D

Warped

Alot of fun. Really hot. Good time though.
The list:
Cobra Starship, The Secret Handshake, Shwayze, Set Your Goals, Dillinger Escape Plan. Say Anything, Gym Class Heroes, The Pink Spiders, A Day To Remember, Family Force 5, Maylene and the Sons of Disaster.

We were going to stay for Against Me! but we were too tired and didn't feel like waiting another hour for a band.


Fun none the less. =]

Fun

Leaving for Atlanta on Wed. then coming back the next day around late afternoon. Then leaving Friday for the Mountains to do some white water rafting and coming back that Sunday.

I'm excited. =]

Head

Hilton Head is the best.

I'm going to go live with Abby.<3

4TL

I think I migh have some of the worst friends.

>.<

4TW

I enjoy days that are completly unpredictable. You have set an original plan then it turns into something different but then its still the same. Its so much fun.

Tomorrow should be the same. Downtown with my friend who I feel like I haven't seen in ages. What stories we will have to tell. Oh what stoires.<3

LAWL

I gotz a blog you guyz!