penny for your thoughts

I miss a lot of people right now. I dont make an effort to try to talk to them as much as I want to. I want to travel to go see them all and tell them they are dear to me and have changed my life. I turn 18 in less than a month and to be honest, I am terrified. I graduate soon and I am suppose to be moving out not too long after that. It's exciting but scary. Today, I had to actually make my own dentist appointment because my mother won't be there next time and I had to revolve it around my college classes which I will be having later this year. By the end of this year, I will be 18, moved out and in college. I will have my best friend by my side for all of it. I am terrified but excited yet mostly terrified and not wanting to go through this whole process. I want to go in the future by just a bit and see where I stand by October or November and see if I'm still in school and living on my own or if I will be dropped out of school and living with my parents. Everything is unsure now a days. I want something for sure and stable. A safety blanket.